I read this quote this morning:
"The knowledge of God's Father-love is the first and simplest, but also the last and highest lesson in the school of prayer." Andrew Murray
It was then that my heart was moved to recall all the times my father reached out to me while we were estranged. My hardened and hurt heart was closed off, not receptive. Despite my unwillingness to open my heart again, my father pursued me. Letters and cards never stopped coming. I would open them, read them and then tuck them away - and they kept coming...His kindness to me and his love for me made it possible to reconcile - I might even say that those loving actions all those years warmed my heart and compelled my response of love and forgiveness and repentance. In those moments this morning, God showed me His relentless pursuit, His kindness and love, His faithfulness in the midst of my faithlessness. It was not His cold, distant, conditional love that wooed my heart - rather it was His warm, near, unconditional never giving up love for me that won my heart. I have always believed that my experience with my earthly father could never reveal to me the love of my Heavenly Father - I was wrong. My childhood was not perfect - a far cry from perfect actually. But, today I can thank my earthly father (who passed away three years ago) for pursuing me unconditionally - even when I wanted to run the other way.
God demonstrated His perfect love for me through the imperfections of my earthly father. I believe that's called redemption.
God really is in the process of making all things new...
Then I saw a new heaven and a new earth, for the first heaven and the first earth had passed away, and the sea was no more. And I saw the holy city, new Jerusalem, coming down out of heaven from God, prepared as a bride adorned for her husband. And I heard a loud voice from the throne saying, "Behold, the dwelling place of God is with man. He will dwell with them, and they will be his people, and God himself will be with them as their God. He will wipe away every tear from their eyes, and death shall be no more, neither shall there be mourning, nor crying, nor pain anymore, for the former things have passed away." And he who was seated on the throne said, "Behold, I am making all things new." Revelation 21:1-5